Supposed friends.....

~gets up on his soap box and gets ready to go into rant mode~

Supposed friends is what I'm going to talk about, or more appropriately rant about, today.

I'm sick and tired of being friends with people who want the world to revolve around them, and then when the world doesn't they go and get fucking pissed off and say that they don't want to be friends anymore. That's such childish high school shit, and I'm not going to put up with that crap anymore.

I don't care if other people are happy with the decisions that I make. I will make the decisions in my life that are right for me, and I don't expect the majority of the people that I know to be happy with them. All I ask of the people I consider friends, especially my close friends, is that they accept the decisions that I make and understand that I choose how and where my life is going to go. I'm not out to make other people happy most of the time, I'm going to keep myself happy and if everyone else around me is happy, then it's so much the better. If not, then they can just get the hell on and find someone else to be friends with.

I don't know about everyone else, but I don't consider someone a friend when that person blows you off, treats you like a piece of shit (no matter how you treat them), says that they don't have time to talk to you but are then more than willing to talk to anyone else in the world. If that's your idea of friendship, then you've got a pretty fucked up idea of friendship. I consider someone a friend if they are willing to talk to you, to spend time with you whether at work or not, if they enjoy your company.

I'm fucking sick and tired of the roller coaster that some people put you through, wanting to be all nice and happy and friends with you one day, and then you do something or say something or they misinterpret something you say/do/have on and things go to shit again. That's not how friends treat each other. That's not a healthy relationship, whether it's friends or it's something more.

Now, I know that people who are friends are not always going to be all good and happy every day, but it's stupid to let little things bring down a friendship in flames. It's stupid to let little things build up until things come to a head and then friends get into a huge argument and people want to destroy the relationships that they have. I think than any relationship, friendship or otherwise, is built on a small amount of trust, and if you can't trust the person that you are friends with, then why even continue to be friends with them.

I'm tired of having friends who only want me around to make them feel better with no regard for my feelings. I'm tired of being here only when they need me, but when I need someone to talk to they could care less. I'm pretty fucking tired of being peoples' whipping boy. If you want me to be your friend, you will have to respect me and treat me as an actual person, not just some plaything that you can throw away whenever you feel like it.

~steps down off his soap box and disengages rant mode~

After all that, I hope that everyone has a good weekend!!! I've gotta work Sunday, and it's supposed to rain most of the weekend here in Kansas City, at least off and on, so it'll be an interesting weekend, to be certain.