Another small update for today....

Sorry, I've not been very talkative the past couple days.

Found a daycare for the boys. They're going to go to Kindercare again, and they start on the 8th of August. Woo!!

Might've found an apartment for Cindy, she's going to look at it today and see what she thinks of it. Hopefully she'll like it and she'll be able to get into them.

That's it for today. Dunno if I'll post anything this weekend. If I don't, I hope everyone has a good weekend!

One little update for today.

The Bloodhound Gang is coming out with a new cd on September 20th, 2005! Woo!!!

Funny thing is, they have a song on the cd called Pennsylvania and they are lobbying the Pennsylvania State Legislature to change the state song of Pennsylvania from what it currently is to their song.

That's it for today. I got excited when I found out they were going to put out a new cd!

Some Lyrics for the day....

Friends by Cowboy Mouth
Uh Oh Album version
Live at The Zoo(live album) live version

She said let's go
I said hell no
I don't wanna be friends
She said kiss me
I said miss me
I don't wanna be friends
She said love me
I said shove me
I don't wanna be friends
She sat near me
Can't you hear me
I don't wanna be friends
She said trust me
What, so you can bust me
I don't wanna be friends
I think I'm gonna do what I damn well please
'Cause I don't wanna be friends

Maybe there will come a day
When you decide to walk away
But I
Don't
Think
So
Now

She said beg me
What, so you can peg me
I don't wanna be friends
I'm tired of takin' shit that I don't deserve
Cause I don't wanna be friends

She said hurt me
I said squirt me
I don't wanna be friends
Can't you get it through your thick thick skull
That I don't wanna be friends

Maybe there will come a time
When I could probably change my mind
But I
Don't
Think
So
Now

She said need me
I said leave me
I don't wanna be friends
She said love me
I said shove me
I don't wanna be friends
She said let's go
I said hell no
I don't wanna be friends
She said hold me
I said blow me
I don't wanna be
There's no need to be
I don't wanna be friends

Happy Monday......

Well, I suppose, as happy as a Monday can be. ;)

A couple new things I set up last Friday....
First off, a week ago last Friday, I decided that I was going to stop using this blog on the Blogger network, mainly because there's someone on that has been reading that journal that I don't want to read things about my life anymore.
So, this past Friday, I set up a new blog on the Blogger network, along with a blog that I can use to post pictures and small posts from my mobile phone, again on the Blogger network. I like some of the functionality that the Blogger network gives someone who wants to blog for free, as opposed to Livejournal that you have to pay for them, such as having mobile postings of pictures/blogs. They will also set up Atom feeds for a person for free, which I've set up and I just need to add the links for. I'm also going to go through Feedburner and set up RSS feeds for both of these blogs, so that people could use RSS aggregators and add my blogs to them, if they so desire. Now, one of the few bad things about the Blogger network is that there is little to no security as far as who reads what, but then again, that's why I keep my Livejournal account, for those posts that I really don't want everyone in the world to read, I can post those and have them available to just my friends list on Livejournal.

Saturday, I didn't do a whole lot of anything. Watched a couple movies, talked to a couple people online, and that's about it.

Sunday, I watched the final stage of the Tour de France. Congrats to Lance Armstrong for winning his seventh straight Tour de France and retiring at the top of his game. Also watched the NASCAR race (imagine that ~_^). Watched a couple shows on the Discovery Channel about the Titanic last night and then went to bed.

This morning, came in to work, asked my manager if I could have Friday off, which he said was ok. I'll be working 7am-4pm today, then 6am-5pm Tuesday-Thursday, so I only have to use a couple hours of vacation time. I'm trying to save my vacation time up for when my parents come out here in August, so I can take a couple days off and be able to spend time with them. The reason why I am going to be taking Friday off is because I'm going to go down and help Cindy move her things back up here. She's got to be out of the place she's living in now by the end of July, and since her pay period ends on Friday, she's just going to go ahead and move back to Kansas City this weekend. From what I've heard from her, it sounds like she may already have found a couple places that she wants to look at for apartments up here, so hopefully she won't be staying with me too long, but only time will tell.

I think that's enough for me today, at least for right now. Might post up some links from digg.com, depending on if the mood suits me.

Another update for today....

But on a happier note....

I updated the gallery software that I use online. I decided to try out the new beta version of Gallery. I figured I'd give it a shot, since that's the next version of the software, and the beta 4 that's out now seems to be pretty stable.

Feel free to check it out, everyone.

Tenchi-kun's picture gallery

Friday!!!

Yes, it's time for the first post in the new blog. Hold on tight, it's gonna be a whopper of a starting post.

~gets up on his soapbox and pushes a button that says "Rant Mode Engaged"~
Yes, it's true, I am going to let Cindy and the boys stay with me for a couple weeks once she moves back up here until she finds a new apartment for herself and the boys. Now, pretty much everyone, even , understands that I'm doing this to make sure that the boys are taken care of, and that's all they see it as. They seem to understand that I'm willing to put up with pretty much anything to make sure that Joey and Mikey are taken care of and are safe.

However, there is one person in particular that seems to think that I'm a dumbass, that I should be looking into all these other options and ways to take care of the boys. They don't bother to realize that I HAVE looked into those options, and this is the only one that's viable for me at this point in time. Everyone else that I've told, even my parents, sees what I'm doing as me being a father that actually cares about the well-being of his children and is willing to do what it takes to make sure that they are taken care of, that I'm being nice and considerate about the whole thing and actually doing the responsible thing, the adult thing, and putting the differences that Cindy and I have aside, putting aside all of the problems that Cindy and I have and the pain that Cindy's caused me so that I KNOW that my boys are well taken care of and safe.

It bothers me that this person can't seem to grasp that the only reason that I have been even considering letting Cindy stay with me is because of the boys, because out of all of the things in the world that I have to take care of, the boys take priority over everything else, even if it means that I have to live with Cindy again for a short time. Either this person doesn't care about the reasons why I am, even though I tried to explain them, or they just are too damn stubborn to actually LISTEN to why I'm doing it.

Many people don't know this, but Cindy did have a son before she and I met. She decided to join the Marines and gave primary custody of her son to his father. Now his father prevents her from seeing her first son, for reasons that I don't know. I know how much it's hurt Cindy having to go through that, and I know that she's afraid that I would do that to her if I was to have primary custody of the boys. (I wouldn't, of course, but that's not the point that I'm getting at.) I've seen what it's been like for Cindy, the depression that she's gone through, and even with all of the things that Cindy has done to me, I do care about Cindy and about her well-being, both physical and mental, and I'm not going to put Cindy through that again. I want her to be a part of Joey and Mikey's life as much as I want to be part of their life, and I am NOT going to take that away from her.

What makes it even worse is that this person is someone that I care about and I treasure their friendship, and yet because of this situation, the person is creating a rift in our friendship and basically making me feel like our friendship doesn't matter to them anymore. It bothers me that this person is so fucking stubborn and hard-headed that all they want to see is me letting myself be used by Cindy, that her wanting to come back up here as a play by Cindy to get me back into her life. Well, like it or not, Cindy is ALWAYS going to be a part of my life. She is the mother of my children, and I will always have to deal with her in one way or another. It's like they don't fucking realize that where Cindy is now, in Dixon, she has no way to get the boys to the doctor, other than bringing them up here, that Cindy's parents and sister are not helping her at all with watching the boys, that life down there in Dixon is NOT BETTER for my boys than it is here.

It bothers me that this person can't fucking grow up and understand that I'm thinking of the well-being of my children, that I don't want to get back together with Cindy. Had I wanted to be back with Cindy, I would take her back with open arms and would NOT have told her that she has to find an apartment on her own once she moves back up here. I explained to Cindy that she and I will not be living together permanently, that I am only helping her until she can find a place of her own. It really fucking bothers me that this person tries to make me feel fucking guilty for wanting to spend time with my children, which in turn means that I have to see Cindy as well. And yet, this person tells me that I'm acting fucking childish because I sit here and try to explain my reasons for doing what I do, not giving excuses for what I do, but explaining why I do the things that I do. This person is making me feel like it's either I be friends with them and ignore my children, or I be with my children and lose them as a friend. I hate to say it, but it's a pretty easy decision for me to make, in all honesty, because I will choose my children 10 out of 10 times, because no one in the world is more important to me than the boys.

Oh well, if this particular person doesn't want to be around me or be friends with me, that's their decision and I'm not going to try and fight it anymore. I'm tired of trying to make everyone happy all the time, when it seems like all it ends up doing is pissing people off and making them mad at me.

~pushes the button again and disengages the rant mode~

I hope everyone has a good weekend! I'm planning on staying home all weekend, trying to stay out of the heat. If you do have to go outside, be careful out there, especially if you live in the Kansas City area, cause it's gonna be a hot one out there.